For the longest time, I did many things in hopes of getting likes, follows, feedback and money. I’ve finally come to the conclusion of doing things for myself. Why? Because of the pressure of wanting to get an audience and customers are overwhelming and stressful. It’s stressful to write in hopes of getting feedback and comments. It’s also stressful painting for income. I’m no longer painting for income; I’m painting for myself. If I needed to make an income, I prefer to just get a real job. Working from home and earning from home sounds ideal but not everyone can achieve it. 

I’ve been putting my painting activities on hold for many reasons. First, is that I put up paintings on sale on Etsy.com, but no one bought them for over a week. I don’t feel that my paintings were good enough. I didn’t put my blood and sweat into making it look nice. I’m just a beginner. I only spend 1-2 hours per paintings. I didn’t like my paintings all that much. So I’ve decided to put it on hold and do sketching in my sketchbook instead. I’ll only put my artwork on the canvas after having those ideas sketched onto my sketchbook. I also don’t have that many funds to keep buying canvases if they don’t get sold. I can only buy more canvases if all the paintings get sold.

I’m still grateful my first painting got sold. Otherwise, I wouldn’t continue painting. I only felt motivated to continue because my first customer bought my first painting. I’m very grateful for her.

Same goes for blogging. I’ll only blog once in a while. My blog doesn’t get much traffic so there is no use to blog every single day.

“Jehovah’s Heaven” acrylic painting, July 30, 2019, 30x30cm

In 2017, I saw a vision of Jehovah on his throne, a man on the throne and a woman on the throne. They were the followers of Jehovah. This was during my mental illness. And lights were shining on my face.

Next time, I’ll be working on drawing and painting faces. I’ll possibly be working on other mediums.

Since my artwork was painted about my past visions. I’ve decided to move on and work on something new.

I’m happy that I finally achieved the light rays as how I wanted them. I’m happy with this piece.

If you’re interested in purchasing this piece, it’s available on my Etsy.com shop.

https://www.etsy.com/shop/PimchayasArt

Thank you and if you have any suggestions about art, please let me know! I’m always working on improving my art because I just got started.

I’ve got a new painting that I finished this morning at 6 AM, “Impressionism Flowers.” I’ve never painted flowers before and never knew how to make roses so this new painting was actually my first attempt at trying to paint roses. 

I aim to draw or paint daily because practicing makes everything better. And it takes time until I’ll actually progress. 

This was my first time at doing something and not giving up even when I was faced with obstacles. Even if I’m not a professional artist, I’ll continue to do this until I die because I love art. Making art makes me happy. One day, I also want to make stuffed animals and other handcrafts. I really love making art.

One day, I hope I could be the one to make tutorial videos on YouTube. That’s after I’m very good at painting.

What do you like to do for a hobby?

A girl wearing Frangipani.

Frangipani can be seen across Thailand. There are two varieties, white and purple/pink. Both varieties have a wonderful sweet nectar smell.

Yesterday, I prayed to God asking him why I can’t make an earning. There are so many reasons why I can’t make money. First being that I used to have a mental illness, which I believe is gone now, but I’m currently taking medications. 

A 9-5 is something I find too demanding to keep. I never lasted long at a job. I finally stop working altogether.

So, I was taking a nap in the daytime today and God gave me an answer while I was asleep! He made me understand that I didn’t need to work and just live my life day to day at home. 

I know this entry sounds like a journal if you’re reading this. My point is when you feel troubled and have no one to turn to, I want to share that the only person who can solve your problems is God. He never gets tired of listening to prayers because he’s the creator. Whether you believe this or not, if you put away your pride and try to connect with him, he WILL answer your prayers because he answered mines!

“And this is the confidence that we have in him, that, if we ask any thing according to his will, he heareth us.” – 1 John 5:14

Do you have a connection with God? Share your experiences below.

When I first picked up the paintbrush, I had so many ideas about what I want to paint. My first painting was my best idea; it was a real-life experience. I went to work on my second one; I felt very excited just to have it come out the way I didn’t want. I painted over that canvas and it’s not attracting any audience attention. Should I be worried that people aren’t interested in my work? Should I be worried that I’m not getting reviews and feedback? I think, yes. If it doesn’t receive a compliment, I assume it’s one of the worst pieces. I thought I got the colors right, but maybe, because it’s a beginner piece and people see that. 

Now, I’m experiencing a creative block. Lately, I’ve painted the American president, but feel afraid to show it because my second piece isn’t getting any attention. This is just a sign that I need to paint over it for the third time, which I’m not going to. My father encourages me to leave the painted canvas as it is. He said canvas isn’t expensive. So far, I have two finished artwork, but now I’m not worried if it doesn’t sell. I’ll just work on my passion.

For the past few days, I lost inspirations and ideas, but I came across the talented artist Akiane and watching her was inspiring. I have a better understanding of art when I watch her videos lately.

I think I’ve made some progress in art. I have never painted in my life, but today I’m happy with my new artwork because it’s just the beginning of my new journey; the journey of creating artworks.

My father is my greatest motivator. He said art takes time and he supports everything that I do. It gives me time to improve my work.

⭐ “Heaven’s Lights” acrylic painting, 30x40cm, July 17, 2019 ⭐

Vision from 2018. I was laying in a moving hospital bed inside the ambulance, my eyes were closed and all I saw were white lights shining so bright.

Matthew 25:14

For the kingdom of heaven is as a man traveling into a far country, who called his own servants, and delivered unto them his goods.

A Little Depressing Story

Many years ago, I felt suicidal; I didn’t have any passions. I thought my goal in life was to find work and get employed by someone. All this time, they were the wrong thoughts. I started having a mental illness in 2013 up until the end of 2018 and finally, in 2019, I’m more recovered than I expected. That mental illness led me to see visions and images. I assume some were fake and some were real. The ones I knew were real were visions of God and hearing him speak. His voice is almost like the sound of the wind whispering through the waters. When God appeared, he was mostly bright lights.

My creativity stems from having seen bright lights and lights being similar to light rays, which explains why I keep trying to paint light rays perfectly because most of the time during my illness, light rays would come through the window shining at me. I knew it was God. When I look up to the sky, I see clouds and the light rays would immediately shine down like it was acknowledging me.

My mental illness caused me to want to stay in bed all the time and I gave up on life. When I felt suicidal, I didn’t care about self-care. 

The depressing days are now over and I took upon a new passion or an old passion that I didn’t care to develop until now. It’s art!

Many times I feel discouraged not knowing how to paint a lot of subjects. Light rays, shading color, and blending are my main focus.

My first buyer received my painting yesterday and she seemed to like it. She motivates me to work hard and focus on my new passion. My dream is to work towards being a full-time self-employed artist.

How I Got Into Painting

1) I saw images during my mental illness. I thought it would be fun if I turned it into art. (Most people wouldn’t want to hear a depressing story like mines, so I rarely spoke of it anymore. I only mention it if someone asks me. I put my past away, but I got to say, I love what I saw! I talk about it, not because I dwell in the past. I just love how God heals a sick person.)

2) I saw Tornado Thien on YouTube. She spoke about being a beginner, but she loves painting and has been doing it since 2012. She sold over sixty paintings on Etsy! She also shows the steps in some of her past sales!

3) My first artwork got sold, which motivates me to continue. I painted the first one for fun, trying to turn my vision into an image on the canvas. My first buyer saw my work on this blog. When my first painting got sold, it was the happiest day of my life; someone liked my work.

Making art is more than you think! It takes time, thinking, planning, choosing the right colors and brushes, turning ideas into images, etc. Sometimes those ideas don’t come out the way you expected it to because it also depends on your skill level. 

I’m a beginner artist who strives to make painting a full-time job, but sometimes I get stuck making something look the way I wanted to look on canvas! For example, painting light rays. It looks easier than it seems, but it’s harder than you think! It requires a square brush and I don’t have all of my tools ready. To get those perfect light rays requires moving the watered-down paint a certain way; you have to move your hand quickly when you paint this subject.

1. You, Will, Want To Make Changes Into The Finished Piece.

When you feel confident that you’re done, the next day, you might feel the need to add more to it or make changes. It’s important to give yourself a deadline to tell yourself that it’s finished. It’s not good to stress over some small details especially if you can’t achieve it right away. You can always move on, finish the artwork and practice making it better on the next piece.

2. Sometimes Ideas Might Not Come.

For me, I don’t have much trouble getting an idea for my new painting; I already have a collection of images in my head that I want to paint. Oftentimes, many images are hard to transfer to canvas.

For someone else, their inspiration comes from their surroundings or the place they live. An artist would choose to paint water often because she lives in a setting that has beaches or oceans. Her setting would inspire her to paint a girl floating in the water or a girl swimming in the ocean.

3. Artists Don’t Create Many Pieces At Once.

Making art takes a lot of time, patience, creativity and attention to detail. In reality, you won’t make more than one painting per week. Or sometimes you make two paintings per week. It really all depends if the ideas have come to you. It also depends if you feel the motivation.

As a first time artist, there are some things that are difficult to paint. When I can’t paint the way I expect myself to, I stop working on painting that particular thing. It’s best to watch tutorials instead.

For artists, how does painting make you feel? How do you overcome an obstacle?